A Blonde Moment

  College. It started about 2 months ago. I’ve had some really awesome times and some really awkward ones as well. This particular blonde moment I’m about to catalog is quite surprising as it took place on a mass-scale.

 It was Chemistry class, the last class of the day. Students eagerly waiting for the bell to ring; so they can haul ass out of there and go home, jumping into their soft comfortable beds. Well, not exactly..just an exaggeration. Anyway, Sir Bilal Hameed; our beloved Chemistry teacher, the Director of IT and what not, texted us all. He basically texted a test message just to see if everybody got the text or not. If a student didn’t get his text, he would have to inform Sir Bilal an have his number archived with him. The students did so. Next day, there was much whispering throughout the class, what was it about? There was a ‘test’ that day. My close friend asked me, “Did you get Sir Bilal’s message about the test?” I’m like, “WHAT TEST MAN!?!?!?” I was about to have a panic attack. I quickly checked my phone for any possible messages of that sort. It turned out there was only one message from Sir Bilal from the previous day, beta-testing and confirming whether or not he had each and everyone’s cell number. I assured my friend, “Dude, there isn’t any test, it’s just Sir’s test message.”

Now what do you think made this incident arise? Here is the exact text message:

“Test. Bilal Hameed.”

Now if there was a test, he would have written something along the lines of:

“Test tomorrow, so and so topic.” Or something close to it.

Major blonde moment on the part of the students…hahahahaha

Sounds Like Nostalgia

Over the past decade or so, there have been many timeframes which have been associated with a particular song. Everytime that particular song is heard, I tend to remember the memory linked with it. You must be thinking that this must be pretty lame or retarded, but it’s just a way..a way for me to keep my memories intact, good or bad. Let’s start off.

1998:

Back Here by BBMak

1999:

True To Your Heart from the movie Mulan (awesome Disney movie XD)

2001-2002:

Koi Kahe Kehta Rahe from the movie Dil Chahta Hai

Dil Chahta Hai from the same movie as above

2002-2003:

Saathiya from the movie Saathiya

Bardasht Nahi Kar Sakta..or something like that.

Transformers Armada Theme Song (yes pretty childish, but it was one badass show!)

Obsession from .hack//sign

Trigun Theme Song

Yu-Gi-Oh Theme Song

Yes, all anime basically. I was anime obsessed, I still am kind of. Too many good tunes of the ‘02-’03 era..the one year of my life I spent in Florida, legendary.

2004

A whole bunch of Enrique Iglesias songs.

Heal by Westlife

Turn Around by Westlife

Songs by E.P.

Atif Aslam

Too many others..=p

2005:

Poison by Groove Control

In The Shadows by The Rasmus

Dus Bahane from the movie Dus

Boulevard of Broken Dreams by Green Day

Most of 2005 is very vague..=S

2006:

Move Along by The All-American Rejects

2007:

What I’ve Done by Linkin Park

Big Girls Don’t Cry by Fergie

The Way I Are by Timbaland

Crashed by Daughtry

The list goes on and on and on and on..too many songs to include. Just writing the major highlights that take me back in time..;). Again, you must be thinking…”What is it with this Sci-fi shit?!!?” Seriously, you should try this stuff.

2008:

Adrenaline by Gavin Rossdale

The major highlight of 2008 actually, it basically covers all of the main parts of  the year. Call me crazy, during the O Level papers, this song used to be a source of motivation for me, it really helped me pull through. =) And one more thing, this was also my life’s theme song. Hehe

Early 2009:

New Divide by Linkin Park

Let it Rock by Kevin Rudolf

Now, ‘Let it Rock’ was my motivational song and theme music for the first half of 2009. I used to listen to it during my final O Level papers to build up my stamina. I looked forward to listening to it after coming home..hehe..lame, yes. Sadly, that’s what you probably think. I found it to be pretty awesome.

That covers it basically. The best of the best of nostalgia inducing songs over the past decade for me, obviously. All are interconnected with different memories of the respective era, some I’m longing to relive and some, I just want to forget about.

 

Really Quantum Extraterrestrial Shit

Alright, my previous blog entries are a little too serious.. Time to loosen up a bit with some comedy integrated into my ‘alien’ experiences’. Haha..

 I can recall only two major events that are still intriguing till this day. No idea what I saw. The first time it happened, around 10 or 11 years ago in Dallas. I was just a little kid back then (still am). I was visiting one of the private schools with my mother just to check it out and see what’s going on. It was around noon. Really hot. As I got out of the car, I was walking towards the entrance. I was randomly looking here and there for no reason at all, whatsoever. I was a kid, come on! Random stuff is bound to happen. I looked towards the sky, just to waste time. A silver saucer just caught my eye. Yeah, yeah. I know what you must be thinking, “What the…?!?! How cliche!” Well cliche as it sounds, yes. A silver saucer. It was just hovering in the sky for I don’t know how long. I was just staring at it, wondering..what could it be man?!?!? Then, I just went inside. What did I see inside? Well, I saw a sophisticated and civilized set-up with well-disciplined children. Typical school. Then, towards the cafeteria side, I saw a huge table. The table had many cups filled with a very delicious looking beverage called Kool-Aid. As I was leaving the place, I looked back at the sky, the saucer was nowhere in sight. Till this day, I wonder..whatever was that saucer thing? Can there be a strange connection between all those cups of Kool-Aid and the saucer? Theoretically, if there were ETs in that saucer, what were they after? The Kool-Aid??!? Did I really see the flying saucer? Or was I just hallucinating due to me feeling high because of the heat? Too many baseless and retarded questions, no answers.

 Now, my next major experience roughly took place about 4 or 5 years ago. It was a typical weekend night, playing football with my cousins. As we were playing, something in the corner of our eyes caught our attention. We looked up and saw a gigantic ball of fire just slowly coming down from the stars above. It sure wasn’t a shooting star for all you fairy-tale lovers. It was something far more….mysterious. We quickly ran upstairs and flipped on the news. Nothing. No news about a strange UFO (Unidentified Falling Object) crashing down. Not even a bit. My cousins and I went back outside and resumed our game of football, still pondering..”What in the world did we just see??!” Did we even really see anything that day? Or was it just some electricity line caught on fire and coming down with sheer force and great velocity? We were having fruit juice, so another possibility is that we were just high off the sugar rush.

 Could there be a strange connection between these mysterious objects from the stars above and fruit juice? Of all things?? The world may never even care…

An Endless Waltz

 Do you ever go through a phase in which you think that you’ve been in the same situation before?

 Well, it happens alot to everyone. At times, certain situations tend to repeat themselves, like an endless waltz. Conflicts between past events and current affairs, not to mention the endless politics between two sides. One is usually confused when going through this endless waltz syndrome. Helpless, no idea what to do. It is kind of amazing that a great tolerance level present in majority of us can take us so high up the steps of progress. One can just bear with the crossfire and stay neutral by using simple logic and reasoning, trying not to become lost. Over the course of time, one notices that the circumstances he has been through and dealt with in the past, tend to re-emerge in a new manifestation. It’s a general trend that we see in our lives.

  After each encounter, you get better and better at handling it with full expertise. Metaphorically speaking, this ‘endless waltz syndrome’ can be compared to a broken record player. Repeating the same stuff, over and over and over and over again. One really gets fed up with it all, but, the human factor of tolerance must never be ignored. Patience is another key which helps you get through this repetitive dance charade. Just as one masters the art of the waltz with time and practice, the same goes for the repetition of these events. One gets better and better at tackling them after each encounter.

 Now the main question arises, will this endless waltz syndrome ever end? The answer, it all depends on the type of situations. For some, it can be easy to end dependent on the execution of confrontation, while for others, very unpredictable.

“One of the best teachers a person may come across in life is life itself.” -Nivyan Umer Musavvir

A Roller Coaster Called Life

 This is my first ever blog, pretty exciting for me. =) It has been a while since I’ve written anything to express what I have inside of me. It is a known fact that life can have it’s ups and downs. One moment you’re having the time of your life and the next, well, you get the picture. Over the last few months, I’ve done alot of thinking about myself and my surroundings. I figured, “Hey man, I think it’s about time to bring a change for the better.” During the summer, I had gone to the States to visit family. During my time over there, I had alot of time to think about myself. Throughout the course of my life, I have been the pride of my family and thankfully, still am. . But to some people, I was always a target of underestimation. I was insignificant to some.I always was the dark, loner type. Some of my friends even called me ‘emo’. Even though I was in a constant state of denial, all signs pointed to the contrary. I never was the social type. Silence and solitude were the things I would go for. I know alot of people, have alot of friends, but I only maintain ties with a certain few. Why? Because you shouldn’t have high expectations from anybody, no matter how well you know them, inside and out. I decided to improve my overall image for the better. Physical. Mental. Emotional, bottom line, every way possible. I decided to be more confident about myself and to take on any challenge that may stand in my way, no matter how difficult. In the end, a person always manages to pull through because of the strength of his heart and the hope that fuels it, motivating it to continue in the effort. I took the initiative and actually did manage to work on myself, somewhat.. Somehow, I feel better about myself.

 In some of my experiences, I’ve come to the conclusion that despite the presence of upfront facts and realities,  there will always be some hidden messages. Read between the lines, so to speak. These hidden messages are elusive and can be, at times, contrary to the upfront reality. Some people that may seem to be the best people you know can sometimes turn out to be the worst and most corrupt type out there. On the other hand, people that may be devalued in society usually turn out to be the best gems out there. Which direction is man headed to? The only thing left to do now is hope, the only thing that can enable one to go on.

 My initial plan to stay in States this summer was one month, tops. I was to return back home with my sister. Now, nobody knows what’s going to happen in the next second. Due to some unavoidable circumstances, I had to stay back for an uncertain amount of time. Few weeks, maybe. A month, ummm, probably. Two months? Possibly. It was going to be tough for me. Without my sister, my partner in crime, my confidant. In the end it was a good experience, I got to bond with my father. Despite all the ups and downs I had, all the tests of will-power and trials of patience, I pulled through. Hope. All there is to it. As my time was nearing to return home, I was excited to see everyone after such a long time. Friends, family, everyone. It was going to be the advent of a new page in a chapter of my life. I was happy and ecstatic. I was looking forward to talking to my few good friends, especially one special person. It turned out that I had to stay just a month and a half longer than my sister and every issue was solved. I was on my way back home. A Levels was going to start supposedly on the same day I arrived. On my arrival, I was relieved to find out that it was going to start the next day. Then, that day was a public holiday. *sigh* more relief! I contacted my best friend, to my surprise, that friend of mine didn’t seem to care I was back and was least interested in talking. I was lost, confused. Don’t know what was wrong. The first day of A Levels, a memorable one. Haha. Man, what a day. Ups and downs as usual. My friend didn’t acknowledge me. I was sad. Broken inside. I took advice from some of my friends. They just said, forget about it all. Ignore and find people that actually deserve to have a friend like you, not the type that take you for granted and treat you like a doormat. That day, was very depressing. I cried like a baby. I decided, enough is enough. Time to bring in the new version of me, no more Mr. Nice Guy. I had better confidence than ever before and I had thought that the old me was broken, lost, left to wander in the depths of the abyss, never to see the light of day again. The next few weeks were just wonderful. Despite the positive attitude that I now had, I had ambitions which were pointless, stupid and a MAJOR waste of time. My friends and peers were surprised. Some were blown away and some were concerned. They wanted the old me to come back. Within the last couple of days, I realized alot of things. I rationalized the denominators and came to the result that, this new persona of mine isn’t cutting it. It wasn’t agreeing with the lifestyle I once had and enjoyed. After much realization, the old Nivyan was finally coming back. Even though I thought it would never be possible after all the stuff I went through, the circumstances allowed it. Before saying goodbye to the new persona of mine, I did manage to take some positive components and integrate them into my former lifestyle, accepted by all. I’m glad that this phase of mine is over. No more internal disorder.

 This summer, I learned alot about life. Gained alot of stuff that will help me later on in life and I also found my former self even though it was thought to be lost forever. I hope that in the future, I have the strength to endure whatever challenge that may come my way. I’ve learned to never lose heart because whatever happens, it happens for the best. Finally, I would like to dedicate this post to all those who helped me find my way out of the black hole of depression I had fallen into and made me realize alot of things. I don’t have to mention any names, you guys know who you are.

“All around me are familiar faces, warn out places, warn out faces. Riding early for the daily races, going nowhere, going nowhere. And the tears are filling up their glasses, no expression, no expression. I’m ahead I want to drown my sorrows, no tomorrow, no tomorrow. And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I ever had. I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take. When people run in circles, it’s a very, very mad world.” -Mad World, one of my favourite songs.

Me signing out,

~Nivyan Umer Musavvir